Hey,


Today i've just been sitting around the house just watchign tv. I can't seem to bring myself to read the summer readign book. I know i should, but i just dont want to read it. I can't stop thinkign about saturday. I was excited at first, but now i'm getting my usual dreading feeling....like somehow the date is not gonna happen, or it will be canceled somehow. I have way too much anxiety about this. I just feel like somehow its all gonna end up horribly. I'm praying it won't but i just can't get it off my mind!

All I really want to do right now is go to band practice, but thats not until another 2 hours away. So i have to lay aroudn the house for two frickin hours thinkign about "what if"!!! I hate it! Maybe if i make some chocolate covered strawberries, that will make me feel better. I wish we could have gone to the mall today but debbie is sick :( and laura had to bring her lil bro somewhere. Man, i really need a trip to the mall. Lol. OH well, we'll go next week, and then i'll be able to enjoy it better without so much anxiety. I wish i didn't have to work 6 hours on saturday, but hey, thats my life...